Tuesday, July 14, 2009

It's gonna be one of Those Months.

Hey Folks,

If you've been following my twitter you already know - my dad isn't doing well.
In fact there's no talk of recovery at this point. My cousin has notified to hospice and he'll be moving there shortly.

I'm heading on out to FL sometime in the next 40 hours - waiting to hear back from my brother before I buy my over priced ticket.

Then in about a week I'm heading down to ComicCon - which should be the most surreal experience of contrast ever.

And in a few weeks after that, I'll be heading back to PA to help my mom out. Again my brother will be there.

This maybe the most time we'll have spent together since we were both living at home.

I don't know when or why the bonds of family ceased to be cohesive, and I don't know that there's really any getting it back at this point. I'm a loner Dottie, a rebel . I used to quote that jokingly, but I guess somewhere along the lines it just sunk in and became a credo.

My bad?

In the face of all this, I'm not really feeling anything particularly "big" - it's more of a numb and a sense of "shouldn't I be feeling something more here"?

I'm disconnected from the whole thing. I'm sure when I get there, things will be different.

So that's where I'm at.

Stay Strong,